Post by Katie on Dec 27, 2003 23:32:05 GMT -5
Thought I'd jot down a few lines. At present, I've stopped journaling, and...maybe foolishly...I'm trying to "do it on my own." (I'm still in WW though---I know that is a given.) Maybe I have to get through this to prove something...or maybe I'm just tired of keeping such close track. To make a long story short, for various reasons, I'm at about the same weight as I was last year at this time. Last year at about this time, I began moving to another house, stopped journaling, and have been on an up & down journey ever since, after an intial 9 months of total devotion to WW and my new way of eating.
What has changed positively in my life since last year, though?
1. My expenses have been cut quite a bit since moving to a smaller, and less expensive, house.
2. I have not gained back the 150 pounds I lost!
3. My eating has changed dramatically since 2 years ago and I have maintained most of the changes in the last year. This year, however, I do eat "junk food" now & then. Today I had a chocolate truffle and a Little Debbie cake. And I let myself enjoy them instead of convincing myself that they don't taste good--they DO taste good. Having said that, there ARE foods that I used to eat that I don't really like anymore. I had French Fries yesterday, and all the grease is really not worth it to me! I'm still eating lots of fruits and veggies, some soy burgers, yogurt, cottage & ricotta cheeses, beans, soups--mainly all the healthy changes that I made when I 1st joined WW this last time. My main challenge is drinking enough water to my satisfaction, so I continue to work on that.
4. I'm working at new job now with MUCH more temptation around---lots of snack and drink machines, as well as food brought in by employees & food given to us by the company. The other day, the staff supplied all the employees in my section with sausage, egg, and cheese croissants from Burger King--a former staple food for me! I ate one & enjoyed it. I was going to leave it at that, but at the end of the day, lots of them were leftover. I took about 8 of them home, intending to freeze them and eat one a day--even though they're around 15 pts each; that wasn't a very smart move on my part, and I found some disturbing feelings with all that. I felt that I had to hoard them all to myself, even though I knew that it wasn't wise of me. BUT I think I subconsciously took care of it by questioning whether or not they were OK to eat, after having sat out all day long. So I ended up giving all of them to my Dad's dogs! It turned out OK after all! ;D I would have preferred to have said NO to the offer of the extra goodies---and in some circumstances I HAVE said that. So I'm not going to be too hard on myself. Oh yeah, and there was LOTS of cake and quick breads leftover, and I had just one piece while I was there! YES!!
Christmas hasn't been a hard time for me, as I don't do a lot of baking. We haven't had our Christmas dinner yet because family is out of town til tomorrow, but we'll have a points-friendly feast as per usual.
What I want to do is realize that I have about 80 pounds to go to get to my goal weight. I know that I've got the "good enough syndrome" and I'm fighting daily with that. I'm encouraged that I've maintained close to my loss from this time last year, but it has crept up over 15-20 lbs. at one point. That shows me how easily it WILL creep up if I don't pay attention. I guess I will always have to watch what I eat, but then that's not so bad. I guess EVERYONE, in different degrees and at different times, pays attention to what they eat.
Another thing....I'm working on listening to my body & eating when I'm hungry. I would LOVE to be able to eat what I want anytime I want, and I THINK I could do that if I ONLY eat when I'm hungry. But that is one hard habit to break. I eat when I'm bored or restless or excited about a new food or recipe or when I'm relaxing or.....you know the story. I tried chewing gum for a while and that worked really well..however I can't chew gum at work so I got out of the habit. NOW I have to tell myself that eating at work is not a problem (I can only take one 15 min. break during my shift and can't eat at my desk), so I CAN go back to chewing my gum everywhere else.
Thanks for listening! ;D
What has changed positively in my life since last year, though?
1. My expenses have been cut quite a bit since moving to a smaller, and less expensive, house.
2. I have not gained back the 150 pounds I lost!
3. My eating has changed dramatically since 2 years ago and I have maintained most of the changes in the last year. This year, however, I do eat "junk food" now & then. Today I had a chocolate truffle and a Little Debbie cake. And I let myself enjoy them instead of convincing myself that they don't taste good--they DO taste good. Having said that, there ARE foods that I used to eat that I don't really like anymore. I had French Fries yesterday, and all the grease is really not worth it to me! I'm still eating lots of fruits and veggies, some soy burgers, yogurt, cottage & ricotta cheeses, beans, soups--mainly all the healthy changes that I made when I 1st joined WW this last time. My main challenge is drinking enough water to my satisfaction, so I continue to work on that.
4. I'm working at new job now with MUCH more temptation around---lots of snack and drink machines, as well as food brought in by employees & food given to us by the company. The other day, the staff supplied all the employees in my section with sausage, egg, and cheese croissants from Burger King--a former staple food for me! I ate one & enjoyed it. I was going to leave it at that, but at the end of the day, lots of them were leftover. I took about 8 of them home, intending to freeze them and eat one a day--even though they're around 15 pts each; that wasn't a very smart move on my part, and I found some disturbing feelings with all that. I felt that I had to hoard them all to myself, even though I knew that it wasn't wise of me. BUT I think I subconsciously took care of it by questioning whether or not they were OK to eat, after having sat out all day long. So I ended up giving all of them to my Dad's dogs! It turned out OK after all! ;D I would have preferred to have said NO to the offer of the extra goodies---and in some circumstances I HAVE said that. So I'm not going to be too hard on myself. Oh yeah, and there was LOTS of cake and quick breads leftover, and I had just one piece while I was there! YES!!
Christmas hasn't been a hard time for me, as I don't do a lot of baking. We haven't had our Christmas dinner yet because family is out of town til tomorrow, but we'll have a points-friendly feast as per usual.
What I want to do is realize that I have about 80 pounds to go to get to my goal weight. I know that I've got the "good enough syndrome" and I'm fighting daily with that. I'm encouraged that I've maintained close to my loss from this time last year, but it has crept up over 15-20 lbs. at one point. That shows me how easily it WILL creep up if I don't pay attention. I guess I will always have to watch what I eat, but then that's not so bad. I guess EVERYONE, in different degrees and at different times, pays attention to what they eat.
Another thing....I'm working on listening to my body & eating when I'm hungry. I would LOVE to be able to eat what I want anytime I want, and I THINK I could do that if I ONLY eat when I'm hungry. But that is one hard habit to break. I eat when I'm bored or restless or excited about a new food or recipe or when I'm relaxing or.....you know the story. I tried chewing gum for a while and that worked really well..however I can't chew gum at work so I got out of the habit. NOW I have to tell myself that eating at work is not a problem (I can only take one 15 min. break during my shift and can't eat at my desk), so I CAN go back to chewing my gum everywhere else.
Thanks for listening! ;D