page 14, September 16, 2003: Gotta say that I'm

[Katie]

Gotta say that I'm having a difficult time emotionally this week. I'm trying so hard not to worry about money, but I am, and that tends to immobilize me. I'm fighting it tooth and nail though. I just got the forms today from Social Security where they're reviewing me for continued disability. Since I've lost so much weight, I really don't know how they're gonna look at it, and that's scaring me. When I began this weight loss journey, I knew there was a possibility someday that they may decide I'm no longer disabled, even though my weight was not the only reason I starting receiving benefits, and that time has possibly come. I've got mixed feelings because I feel SO much better than I did previously, but I still have stress-related problems. And of course, if I don't get SSA anymore, I have no medical insurance. And no place is going to provide medical insurance for me if I only work part-time. I am confident that a full-time public job is still out of the question for me, so maybe they will decide that I keep it. I've got to turn it over to God, though, cause it's really out of my hands, short of whatever documentation I can provide them for why I think I still need it. And I wouldn't trade getting SSA for that extra weight in a million years!!

Just heard from a buddy on Bootcamp Buddies encouraging me about having such a small kitchen. I decided to begin "Project Tornado" to rid my kitchen, and then my house, of stuff I don't need. It will be SO liberating and I'm anxious to start. Have been in a snit about it, and I'm gonna turn that into action. After all, I don't have a job right now to go to!!

Til next time....bye! ;D

[kathyd]

Katie, project tornado sounds like something I should do! I have a tiny house, but the kitchen is not really the problem--I have one closet that is as big as a small coat closet. I used to have two, but turned the second one into a hothingyer heater closet when I got a new hot water heater...So now my clothes are here, there, even have some hanging on the back porch! Gotta build a closet, I know! I have a plan...just gotta do it! And get rid of stuff. Oy.
kd ;D